Monday, April 11, 2011

Feeling Small

You'll have to excuse my rambling tonight. No, don't worry, this won't be a post about how I feel insignificant and worthless. Last night I went to dinner at Asado. The food was AMAZING, the company was inspiring and motivational. The chairs were... well, they were... normal. I sat there in this normal size chair and felt small. Not only did I fit in the chair, but I fit comfortably.  The chair was almost too large.

I'm not doing this feeling justice.

It's like this...

Nope, I don't know what it's like. I still see a BIG girl in the mirror. That girl doesn't fit in chairs, wear size 12 dresses or wake up early 3 days a week to get in her run before work. Lately I have found myself weighing myself less and less. I have started becoming OK with my weight. I catch myself as I pass a window and take myself by surprise. I'm happy with how I look in clothes. I am delighted with my cardio performance. I'm enjoying the new challenge of adding weights to my workout routine.

It's not just that I am starting to feel small. It's that I am starting to feel like what I always thought "normal" would be.


  1. That is so awesome! I can't wait until I feel like that. Oh, and to not have to wonder if my hips are going to fit in the chair or if the chair is sturdy enough to handle me. Just to sit and not even have the thoughts run through my head. Ahhhh......! Congratulations on all your hard work!

  2. You are awesome! It is so hard to see your body the way it is after a change. I can't wait to not care as much about what the scale says...for now though, it keeps me accountable and on track. Keep up the great work!!!

  3. the emotional weight is heavier than our physical, and I am gathering just as difficult to lose. I think you've done a fantastic job. I hope next time you're walking past the mirror that big girl gives you a wink, because big or small it's still you.

  4. Yes, you are NORMAL! It's a great great feeling when you can feel that way, glad you're feeling good about yourself. I feel so happy for you.

  5. Thanks JP! You ar right- the emotional weight is HUGE. When people ask me the hardest part of weight loss I always tell them that the emotional aspect is way more difficult than the physical. I get the science behind weight loss. I don't always get the amotions.

  6. Hey Angie! I totally still care what the scale says! :) The difference now is that I don't totally freak out when it doesn't go my way. Weight is a fluid number and I'm *starting* to accept that. Thanks for stopping by my blog. :)


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On June 19, 2009 I started my weight loss journey. It has become quite the journey! As of today (2-1-11) I have lost 162 pounds and have gained a whole new life. This blog is a continuation of my journey. I hope to inspire and encourage others through my process.