I have to break up with my scale. Over the course of my journey my scale has become my best friend and my worst enemy at the same time. My name is Kari and I weigh myself 2 or 3 times a day. How I feel about myself and my fitness level has become dependent on my weight that morning. In my head I know that weight fluctuates and that it is the long term progress that counts, but in my heart it appears that I have not grasped this concept.
When I eat pizza my weight always goes up a pound or two (stupid fluid retention!) for a few days and then returns to normal. I had a piece of pizza last night. Today I weighed myself (as I do EVERY morning) and was devastated to see that the scale had crept up .2 lbs from yesterday. I was devastated! I shouldn't have been. The weight gain (if you even call .2 a gain?) was expected and yet it caused me to doubt all of my efforts and get frustrated with my progress.
So, I am breaking up with my scale. I have committed to not weighing myself for a week. This is a big deal for me and one that I have second guessed all morning. The scale is ONE indicator of my health, but there are many other indicators that show me I am making great progress. Today I ran at a 5.0 for half of my 30 minute run and 4.0 for the other half. When I first started I was running a 3.5 for 30 seconds. Whoot! Whoot! Also, I tried the stair climber today for the first time and lasted 10 minutes and 31 floors. THAT is proof that I am healthy and in a good place today. See you next week scale. :)
Kari, I can't even begin to tell you how amazing you are. From the first day I met you on the treadmill you have been an inspiration to me. I know you won't think so but there is proof in my words. I wrote about you back in July. Here's the link.
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It's just a small snippet but you'll know it when you read it. I think about you often and nearly cried seeing you today. Few people in our lives will understand from where we came. I'm honored to have met you and am honored to be a part of your journey in whatever way I can.