Truth in Lending

When you get a loan from the bank you always get a Truth in Lending statement that shows what you will really be paying when your loan is paid in full. For example, my loan for my house might be for $100,000, but when I pay the loan off I will have paid $250,000. It also talks about all the penalties and fees involved in your loan.Today was a Truth in Lending day in my weight loss journey!

It started last night- I started to question if I could really do this (healthy eating, exercise, lose/maintain weight loss) for the REST of my life. The rest of my life should be a looooong time. It's hard work to live a healthy lifestyle and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier. I enjoy working out and I even enjoy how good I feel after eating a healthy meal. Thanksgiving was gross- I hated feeling so full. This is still hard and it is constantly at the forefront of all I do. My muscles hurt all the time (not a bad hurt, more of a "yep, I'm still here" kind of feeling) and I am always thinking about how my food choices will fit into my overall caloric needs. This all seems overwhelming and the price seems so high! I remember when I was signing my mortgage paperwork- overwhelmed and terrified!

These feelings continued during the night and were waiting for me when I woke up this morning. I feel blah today. My excess skin seems extra saggy. I haven't lost for 2 weeks and I'm getting frustrated. My hair was droopy today. I feel fat today. I didn't have any oomph at the gym and I really wanted pizza for dinner.

We did order pizza and guess what? I felt better after the pizza. There is this thing called intuitive eating that encourages people to "listen" to their body and eat what their body is craving. The thought of intuitive eating scares me to death! I live by my food diary and heart rate monitor. I can't imagine eating what my body tells me to eat. Tonight I ate one piece of pizza (yes, really only one!) with a side salad and I felt a lot better. I am going to take tomorrow off from the gym and give my body a break. So, here's my Truth in Lending for the day- It is hard. There are days when I get discouraged. Sometimes a piece of pizza will make you feel better. There may be weeks when the scale doesn't move. NEVERTHELESS, in the end you will get a healthy body that allows you to play with your kids, shop in regular clothing stores, sail up the stairs at work, and feel better about yourself than you have in years (most of the time!).