Friday, January 10, 2014
What my body needs....
I threw away my "fat" clothes because I was never again going to be that size.
I tried on 4 pairs of pants this morning.
Not a single pair went over my hips.
I did what any logical person would do. I crawled back into bed and sulked.
The ever supportive husband asked how he could help.
He already does.
He has always been my #1 cheerleader.
Over the past few weeks I've "recommitted" several times to recording. Recording works for me. My sticking-to-it has not been working lately.
1200 calories a day keeps the weight off, but makes me someone that I don’t want to be.
Total abandonment causes me to gain an unhealthy amount of weight and means that I will soon have to be going to work naked.
1800-2000 calories a day is what my body needs.
Why, why, why can I record and commit at 1200 calories, but not at 1800?
I did eventually crawl out from under the covers, put on a stretchy skirt and headed to work.
I need some accountability.
I need someone to ask me how my recording is going.
I need help, but I’m not really sure what the help looks like.
This post probably makes no sense, and that’s ok.