AND THEN I remember. I remember how I have watched countless friend put it all back on and then some after stopping the program. I remember how much money these programs cost and how they continue to cost if you want to sustain loss. I remember how hard it is to go to a party and not eat because it's not your cheat day.
I weighed myself this morning- 213.6! UGHHHHHHHH!!!! I am approaching obese again.
I cried in the bathroom. Immediately my mind went to detox or cleanse.
The scale is just a number. I get that, but right now it's a number that I am super uncomfortable with. It's my eating. I haven't been tracking. This sucks! There is a rationale part of me that know that if I go back to tracking that within 2 months I can be back down to my maintenance weight- 2 pounds a week. Slow and steady wins the race. The irrational side of Kari is FED UP. I'm tired of tracking my food. I'm tired of always having to focus on what I eat. I exercise faithfully, that should be enough.
What's a girl to do??????
After I had a fit in the bathroom and said nasty things to the scale and about myself I went in to fix breakfast. Spinach, 2 eggs, whole wheat toast and a cup of coffee. I'm ready to start my day. Today I am going to record. Today I am going to make healthy choices.