I got this crazy idea earlier this week that I would go a week without recording my food just to "see what would happen". Today is the first day of not recording and it has been TOUGH! Last night I even had dreams that I started to binge because I figured that if I didn't have to record that it didn't really matter what I ate. I started my day with my typical breakfast (mini wheats and milk) and had my usual morning snack (fiber one bar and a cup of hot cider). It's lunch time and I am starving. I know that I've had enough to eat up until this point, but not recording it makes me feel like I haven't really eaten. Does this make any sense???
I was reading Ann's blog about how she was setting a goal of recording every day this week. Ironic, huh? I told her that my goal was not to record for a week and she called it "Big Girl Weight Loss". She hit the nail on the head. I am terrified of "Big Girl Weight Loss"! There is nothing magical about recording my food. When I started recording it was a tool to help me learn how to eat. I *think* that I have learned what I need, but am fearful to trust myself enough to make those decisions. This might be a long week.... My goal is to post daily for the next week to try to gain some clarity as I continue to learn about myself and my relationship with food.
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About Me
- Kari
- On June 19, 2009 I started my weight loss journey. It has become quite the journey! As of today (2-1-11) I have lost 162 pounds and have gained a whole new life. This blog is a continuation of my journey. I hope to inspire and encourage others through my process.
I recorded almost religiously for a year.
ReplyDeleteThe first time I stopped counting I lasted about 24 hours. It was hard. I second guessed myself. I thought I was going to eat way too much.
Then I went back to counting for a couple more days.
The next time I was able to go for about 4 days without recording. Then I went back to counting.
I stopped counting totally when I hit goal weight back in November. It's a process. It's about learning to trust yourself and listening to what your body wants.
Unfortunately, we also have to deal with the demons that still reside inside of us ("you can't do it", "You'll eat too much", "you have no self control" "Blah Blah Blah"). Just remember Kari, this is your journey and you get to do whatever you want. Experiment with what works and doesn't work. Change. Modify. Live!
I recorded almost religiously for a year.
ReplyDeleteThe first time I stopped counting I lasted about 24 hours. It was hard. I second guessed myself. I thought I was going to eat way too much.
Then I went back to counting for a couple more days.
The next time I was able to go for about 4 days without recording. Then I went back to counting.
I stopped counting totally when I hit goal weight back in November. It's a process. It's about learning to trust yourself and listening to what your body wants.
Unfortunately, we also have to deal with the demons that still reside inside of us ("you can't do it", "You'll eat too much", "you have no self control" "Blah Blah Blah"). Just remember Kari, this is your journey and you get to do whatever you want. Experiment with what works and doesn't work. Change. Modify. Live!