My Weighting Place: There's No Place Like Home

Friday, July 19, 2013

There's No Place Like Home

I'm on vacation #3 in less than 4 weeks. The vacations have been amazing. I feel refreshed and rested, but in terms of healthy habits I feel defeated. My workouts have continued, which is awesome. I love that exercise has become such a part of my life that it is no longer a "half to" but rather a because I want to.

I've written a lot lately (possibly too much) about how I've put on 15-20 pounds since reaching my why-didn't-I-realize-it -when-I-was-there maintenance weight of 193 pounds. Eating on vacation is hard and I find myself thinking, "Does it even matter? I've already gained so much weight." I hate that mentality. Being home for a few days and starting my clean dinners reminded me how good it feels to be making healthy choices, but when you aren't home it is so hard to plan meals. I find myself overeating because I don't know what/when the next meal will be and I don't want to starve. Now, at 210ish pounds I am no where near starving, but it feels that way at times.

I'm starting a DietBet on the 24th am actually a little excited! I hate the "diet" idea, but I am looking forward to working towards a goal. I don't know if my body will corporate, but at least I am going to try. I'll do my initial weigh-in on the 23rd after we get home from this trip. That weight won't be pretty.

My Dietbet plan? Eat healthy foods, stop drinking soda (yes, again), and commit to 64 ounces of water every single day.

I'm disappointed in my choices lately when it comes to food. I hate that I lack self-control. I want to have a healthy attitude about food. I LONG to be "normal" about eating. Confession- I ate a pack of Bug's M&M's while writing this post. Guess I'll be running by the store tomorrow. Days like today make me wonder if I'll ever reach that place where it is no longer so very hard. Will I? Have you? Is this just the way it will always be?

~Kari

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Erin · 611 weeks ago

I am feeling that way about all the BBQ gatherings we're having for graduations, classes, etc. Too many burgers/polish dogs/potato salad/chips ... bleh. Also with our visit with Shannon & Dru in New York, because of all the walking/subways and the fact that the 4 of us were staying in their studio apartment for 5 days, a good deal of our visit was spent going to places to eat! For myself I also feel that burning the midnight oil contributes to feeling yucky and eating yucky things. I can make myself eat healthier when I am getting up early and going to bed at a decent time. I think also I am often dehydrated and am too tired to realize it/do anything about it. Speaking of water, sometimes before I go to bed, I will get a 32 oz glass of water to take to bed, and start drinking and finish it in one fell swoop! Then I have to pour myself more so I can take it up to bed with me. So weird. My rotator cuffs are still giving me grief from my pavement dive the day before Mother's Day (!) so I can't do any weight machines at the Y. It's just the treadmill and the bike. Makes.me.feel.so.lame. How am I going to fare for soccer camp?! On a positive note, tomorrow's a new day and, at least, every morning we drink a spinach/frozen berry/flax seed/apple smoothie ;o) And late at night exercise/diet seems a little bleaker, so probably a bad time to analyze. Yay for a new start!!

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@gardengirl_kp · 611 weeks ago

Yesssss ! You can do it. This is part of the process. I'm glad you are thinking about how you feel when you eat clean.

0. Go back through the house and ditch or seriously sequester any junk food. If it's in your environment, chances are you'll eat it.
1. Go to that good feeling you get and remember it with each clean meal. Say to yourself "I choose this"(I feel great!)
2. Start to pause before you grab the M&M's and say "I choose this" (think Diabetes and Heart disease and Obesity)
3. You'll put the M&M's down and do something else.
4. Go to bed each night after a whole day of eating clean and say, I feel great! I want this again tomorrow.
5. Wake up the next day and say, I want to feel great, just like yesterday. I choose this. I choose health and foods that make me well.

That's how I put enough clean eating days together, to get out of the sugar haze and be able to solve other problems that were in the way of long term weight maintenance.

You are not alone. Sugar is super addictive. Put the sugar down and you will find food sobriety and the mindset to problem solve. It will happen. I'll blog on this soon....

Keep up the good work and it does start with food. It really does. It's not your fault, it wasn't my fault but that is how my brain is wired and that's the ground work I had to and have to do every single day. Food sobriety is so worth it- IMO. Karen P.

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@gardengirl_kp · 611 weeks ago

I expanded on the above steps in a blog post and a link back to your site. I think you are doing great, Kari. Onward!
That post has been in my head a long time, so thanks for inspiring me to type it up. :)
http://gardengirlkp.blogspot.com/2013/07/getting-...

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